Pyxus 13 – mixed media – 2013
Its a small world after all…
I made this piece in The Bahamas before we packed up and left.
It was inspired by the small hidden places where one might tuck secrets – a cavity of unwelcome things. A common white fabric that has stitched in its entrails unspoken and unspeakable truths. I wonder about all the things we hide, especially from ourselves. How well we must stitch them deeper and deeper inside.
Inevitably things hidden create hidden shame. I had a moment of inspiration to take a photo, me, naked, head bowed, face covered by hands. Shame seems so all pervasive yet seldom addressed. I wanted the print to be on glossy paper, as if I needed it to be super real. I want to see this, see the shame. See my shame.
The secrets and the shame are hidden in a box. The box is beguilingly benign. Though the suspended eye, might hint that something is being seen beyond the calm surface.
There is something so common and familiar about this – so small and tight and well hidden.
That tightness causes a tension in me, I prefer to work large.
This is a new journey – into small….
And here I sit in my small studio, with the Scottish weather and coldness closing in, pushing against me. So unfamiliar after the expanse of house, beach, air, sun and warmth that I am used to.
So to small things. Small offers the illusion of security. Yet small can be as expansive as the widest universe. Truly a paradox.